Wednesday, 31 August 2016
Am I Not Really A Mother?
This is not easy for me to write.
I have so many friends having second babies. I love them and their little ones dearly. But it just leaves me with so many questions.
Does having "only" one child mean I'm not really a mother?
Does it mean I'm taking it easy?
Do I not have a full and beautiful life?
Do I not have sleepless nights or early mornings?
Do I not work hard to balance my career, marriage, friendships, and family?
Do I not cry sometimes because I feel overwhelmed?
Does having "only" one child mean I am weaker?
I have to believe the answer to that last question is no, but it's hard not to feel that way sometimes. It's hard not to yearn when things don't go as planned. My mind knows this is best for my family, but when will my heart catch up?
I wrestle with these questions.
Maybe some of you do too.