Lately the Dawson's Creek theme song has been playing a lot in my head.....Cue Jann Arden..."I don't wanna wait for our lives to be over..."
Not because I miss the Dawson-Pacey-Joey love triangle (For the record, I'll always be Team Pacey), but because I find that Rob and I have been putting more and more things on our To Do list that we'll get to "sometime".
- Finally paint up the patches from electrical work done 5 years ago in the hallway? We'll get to it.
- Deal with the hole in our kitchen ceiling? Ya, we should do something about that.
- Date night? That's a good idea. One of us should text the babysitter.
- Family trip to Niagara Falls? Ya, that would be fun.
- A weekend away? Sure, when Sebastian is older.
I think it started after I saw this post from Scary Mommy. I love Scary Mommy because they're edgy and controversial and help me not take myself too seriously. But when I saw this photo, I thought, I don't want to wait until Sebastian is 18 years old to feel like I can start living my life.
If this is our forever house, we need to finish up these renovations. At least the ones that just involve painting. If our friends invite us for a night away, we need to go. Date night once a month is not negotiable. A babysitter is not going to magically appear at our door with movie tickets and a dinner reservation. We have to figure it out. This is our life now. It's not going to start when Sebastian is an adult.
We're busy and tired and always worrying about disrupting the routine of our toddler, but I feel we're learning that he's more resilient than we think he is.
When Sebastian laughs or smiles his little three year old smile, it slays me. His whole world is what we choose to show him. What are we waiting for? This is our life. We've worked hard to get here.
There will always be nights at home when the clock strikes 8pm and the Netflix + wine combo is necessary. Parenting is such a battle between trying to get more sleep and having some time to do your own thing. But I want to try more to have that not be our night every night.
There will always be nights on vacation when our children aren't sleeping well in the hotel room. Does that mean we shouldn't travel? I hope not. There is so much to see and do and experience through their eyes. I don't want to wait until he's older. I want to start doing and seeing with him more now.
Faster than I like, Sebastian will be 18. I highly doubt I'll be done "parenting" then, but these moments won't be the same. They say the days are long, but the years are short. So, here's to making the most of the days and years we do have with our little ones.