Monday, 19 January 2015

The One New Year's Resolution I Won't Quit ...nomatterwhat

Just over a week ago, my friend Kelly sent me and some other ladies an email. How would we like to participate in Mudderella? She told us she thought it would be a lot of fun.

Truth time - I am not in shape. I don't work out regularly, and I love eating gummy bears. When I think of things that sound like fun, that list usually includes: wine, Netflix, reading, and ordering in Thai food. Mudderella is a 5-7 mile long, muddy obstacle course. It would not traditionally fit into the list of fun things I like to do. I'd be lying if I didn't admit that my immediate reaction was to delete the email and tell Kelly to her face how insane I thought she was the next time I saw her.

But before I did that, a small part of me kept saying, "Maybe....." I've seen photos of colour runs and pictures of Tough Mudder and always thought they did actually look a bit fun. Fun in the ohmygodican'tbelieveijustdidthat kind of way. There has been that twinge of "I wish I could do something like that."

The most fit I've ever been was probably about 7 or 8 years ago. I was working out more regularly, had a favourite gym, and even did a handful of 5k runs. Enter baby....

So, after the initial shock of thinking of course there is no way I'm prepared to run 10k, ascend a cargo net or climb over a freaking wall, I thought, maybe....maybe I could actually do this.

What if it did work out? 

Mudderella is not a race and is based on 3 truths:
1. You're stronger than you think you are.
2. There's more to life than going to the gym.
3. You deserve an awesome experience. 

The event is 6 months away, so I have lots of time to train. The 10k isn't a solid run because there are obstacles every half mile or so. And Mudderella provides a training program online to help you prepare for the event. Apart from the runs, I can do a good chunk of the training in my basement. And, most importantly, I won't be alone.

I'm determined and committed to completing Mudderella in 2015 with a team of amazing and brave women.
The Dirty Divas.

I am still very afraid. Mostly, I'm afraid of the run. 10k is further than I've ever run before. And the wall. I'm afraid of climbing over a wall. Or really, not being able to climb over the wall. I'm afraid of dumb things like I'll get my period on game day or it will rain (It's a mud run; I really shouldn't worry about the rain.) I'm afraid my toddler will go into complete meltdown mode, and Rob will have to handle it alone (Which Rob can totally do. I'm clearly grasping at fears here).  I'm also afraid of big things. I'm afraid that despite trying to train as best I can, I still may not be ready. I'm afraid I may get injured. I'm afraid of feeling weak. I'm afraid of giving up.

So, I vow to make this experience ridiculously amazing. That may be the only thing that keep my fears at bay.

I'm excited to make new friends.
I'm excited to deepen the friendships I already have.
I'm excited to have an amazing reason to trek downtown to my favourite gym.
I'm excited to do a few training runs in Quebec City and San Diego when I'm traveling over the next couple of months.
I'm excited to get matching shirts for event day.
I'm excited that in coordinating with my husband when I can do my workouts, we're planning when he can add workouts to his schedule as well.
I'm excited to have this ridiculously amazing experience.
I'm excited to celebrate afterwards.
I'm excited to feel strong.

On July 11, 2015 it's very likely I will be more fit than I have ever been in my whole life. I'm looking forward to feeling what that feels like.

Yesterday I did my first training run. Game on.

Wish me luck!

Images via Mudderella on Facebook and Pinterest.

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